Hi

Hi guys,

I didnt think anyone was checking back on this blog but since there are some kind souls who are, the reason I've been away is bcos about a week before we were scheduled to leave for India, my Father passed away suddenly and everything from then on was a blur, leaving suddenly for India, seeing my mom and siblings and just getting through those weeks.

I am slowly getting back to some semblance of a routine, things feel disconnected and surreal. It's the worst nightmare anyone living far away from their parents can face I think.

I've been online looking for anything that can help me deal with grief and just losing someone. Its the first time for me that I've lost someone so close to me. So even though life has to move on, I have little ones whose needs have to be met, a life that has to be led despite whatever happened, it's going in fits and starts.

Nosh and Reh understand their Nana is gone, they liken it to losing their pets, thats how they understood the concept. They had a lot of questions, still come up with some that alternately make me cry and laugh but their biggest need was felt and appreciated when they were running about the house back home laughing and just moving when the rest of us were frozen. It made us realise how simply life must go on. Despite ourselves we had to get up and do what was required, we had to be brave, we had to laugh at their jokes and we had to do things to keep them occupied whether it was reading books or talking or answering their questions.
They brought smiles onto my mother's face.

Thats why even though I've been reading all you guys, I havent been able to post anything myself and I really appreciate your dropping by to say hi :). Invisible though this blog community is, sometimes, when the spirit comes through, it's touching.
Thanks and I'll be back before you know it.